Friday doesn't always seems to be alike. Pretty bad day =/ Amelia thanks for cheering me up,more hello panda plz! lol. Shall hv a better day tmr! I hope.
(Feelings are really bullshits... I just dun see myself in tt)
I cant stand pple who r nt understanding at all! I'm so tired after going to sch study and training,yet i hv to hear naggings after tt,i dun think its fair to me. I'm getting smarter in yj,dun ask me why. My legs are running out of oil,seriously. And i'm not going to sch tmr,and too,dun ask me why.....
I seriously love my life for now,hope i can get thru with it for two yrs! I dun care whether certain pple understand my life or not,its my life,its not my responsibility to tell anyone anything. Almost did something stupid today,bt well come to think of it,i might just get the status of being a busybody. Tried,gonna slp early....! nights...
GREAT FRIDAY! Well...great for some reasons,firstly lesson ends at 230 and thats damn early,second,got to know the class better =D,n thn theres netball training! Though i still suck meanwhile trying to improve in watever ways i can,i really enjoyed the training,kinda comfortable playing with thm. Ya,thn went for dinner tgt! Perhaps i'm kiasu bt i alr gt my maths tutor,starting tmr,hopefully by starting early my maths will be improved by bits!!! Workload for JC is really kinda heavy bt i'm really glad n thnk god till now i'm still alive and not stressed out. Just tt gonna miss lots of movies n stuff like tt. Sigh... Oh n i saw shi ying,finally! N many more familar faces,kaizhi,soon yong,blah blah blah~~~.. Wanna at least get some work done by tonight! Tata!!
Shall i move on,shall i not? Will i move on,will i not? Feelings i hv nv felt before, clueless trap i'm gonna fall.
Trapped by u i nv believe, now tt i'm one step in. Ways to get out is a mystery. If only strangers we gonna be, how much life will be better off for me.
Oh what an invisible trap of yours, letting me fall without a pause. So am i loving or am i lost? A question only u can answer, plz let me know,let me know, whats love at first sight, isit a trap? isit a debt?
All that i know, is the name of ur trap, love at first sight.
First day of sch was kinda great,was late for lesson,thank god emm brought me to class. K block dotzz. Made a couple of new friends,a few of them hv almost the same frequency as me,so ya.. I think its time for me to make a change. I always tend to make the same mistake and yet stepping in it again n again n again! Seriously i really dunno wats the matter with me. I clearly understand wati'm facing,bt i just dunwanna let go. I AM FUNNY!!! HA HA HA.. I MUST TRY TO CONTROL MY ASS N MYSELF. STOP THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(Why are u the one who makes me keep thinking for nothing,just like a bee buzzing in my brain,a dog tt keeps barking at my ear,a pig tt i think is kinda adorable,a chicken tt has horrible laughters,a duck tt talks non-stop,a hse fly tt keeps flying around me,and why are u so special in a way which i beomecompletely speechless when it is necessary for me to speak,OH WATEVA! DUN MAKE ME THINK PLZ..!)
I really pray tt tis will be the last entry i'm saying abt appealing. Thanks to my sis's excellent talkings wif the principal and much of a reprimanding session wif the clerk,i gt in to emm's sch(emm,dun cry! i know u r damn excited to see me RIGHT? lol) oh well its a longg story,ask me wif u wanna knw the details. Anw,theres still quite a number of things for me to do. Uniform,books,graphic cal,CCA,bucking up to catch up wat i've missed out during the 1st three mths blah~~~. I'm in the same class as emm's fren,netballer too! YAY! (= Gonna slp early tonight,gonna hv a long day tmr!
(I'm gonna love my combi like how i love netball,i'm gonna study hard like how i play hard on court...(= )
After so many trips,troubles and anger frustration,i'm staying in ij. Just want to dash thru the two yrs n tts it. Bt really quite pity cant be in the same sch as emm =( nvm emm,we'll still be going for kallang netball tgt n meet up k? Anw i just think emm's sch shldnt set the standard until like tt,its really a joke as wat i've seen. Well forget it,i'll surive well in ij. Hope i will be able to get all my stuff ready by tmr!
Days for me are still as bad this week,hope i will get my appeal. Maybe lyn is right,whitleyans are all like tt. lol. I have been changing for like dunno how many thousand times. Today dear juniors vs katong convent,GREAT GAME JUNIORS! I bet the KC ppl are surprised we actually hv a draw with thm. But then..it wasnt quite clear,the scores were diff frm bth sides. If we had stand on our rights,we hv alr won. oh well,its ok,draw is alr bad enough for thm to accept. Gd one juniors,my time dwn for thm was worthwhile! Mr ang is KC's coach,he is really very nice =) too bad i wun be staying in innova. And i'm happy tt the sch is finding a coach for my juniors. yay! One more week n my next real holiday will be 2yrs ltr. haiz. Damn....
The whole freaking day was crap,nothing was done well,i hate today. DO U KNW HOW HURTFUL IT IS WHEN NOBODY WANTS TO TRUST U?? FUCK YOU,JUST FUCK OFF...
As usual kallang netball wasn't tt bad,bt then too many new ppl,not used to it. And....poor emm fall flat while risking her life for the ball! EMM PLZ TAKE CARE! UR HUSBAND IS WORRIED!!! lol. Got back my posting.hmmmmmmm not surprising,bt glad to say,i'm satisfied with it. Here i come!!! Two yrs of junior college life!!! =D i'm not going to waste anymore time on anything or anyone,for good.
Irritating day,i really cant stand this bald head uncle whom i saw on the bus. He is a such a disgrace. He actually stole the ezlink card of the boy sitted next to him! Despite seeing the boy looking for it all over,he refused to return. WTF! I gave him such a hard stare n those crusing all the way on the bus,he just dun dare to look. N guess wat? He was shaking his head to me whn i alighted! argh... How much i wish i could board the bus again n ripe off all his remaining pathetic hair! Dun ever let me see him again. No wonder he got lesser hair than normal ppl n i hope he will get is soon or later. Such a bastard. He will be on my mind for the rest of the day,nt for gd of coz. Damn..
After watching the match at bedok i'm confused,abt EVERYTHING... Somehow i couldnt differentiate anything. My mind n heart seems to contradict. Went out with likuan n grace ytd,had quite a lot fun at cartel,esp grace n her bread,oh,and the embarrassed waitress. lol. i'm mean.
Went for MJC's canoe sea training today,all of thm were early despite training suppose to start at 1130. I can say tt most of thm were very committed to canoeing and work very hard. thnk god my boat DID NOT capsize at all! One thing to be happy abt. But i didnt feel right abt the training. Maybe i still hv not really make up my mind. Although i did not capsize,i'm not satisfied with myself at all. i dislike myself for tt,i'm always hving the same mind set. haiz. Really hope to hv a gd rest tmr and half of mon,take it as i'm using the last minute to make up my mind. Watever it is,i seriously hope there wun be any regrets,nt even abit.
(TO MYSELF: COME ON ASSHOLE,MAKE UP UR ASS MIND AND BE SURE OF WAT U WANNA DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ASSHOLE!!!AHHHHHH WTF)