Dinner at hk cafe with lynn mich tze wei and emme was great, sort of compensated for my bad day. I'm becoming impatient with my ankle and the feeling of helpless. Awkward day. Maybe u felt it or maybe nt. Cant wait for sch to end tmr,friday... Time for work,bye.
-maybe i shld del my friendster acc -maybe i shld sell away my laptop -maybe i shld stop daydreaming all the time -maybe i shld stop complaining abt things tat dun go my way -maybe i shld take all things easy -maybe i shld start caring for myself -maybe i shld stop minding others' business -maybe i shld be more determined -maybe i shld push myself thru more hardships -maybe i shld get my own life
I'm feeling tat nothing actually matters alr. I dun feel anything impt now tat i must really hv (excluding A level coz i dun wan to think abt it nw)- k i knw i shld. I'll just wish for a healthy left leg and do watever i want. Next time whn i'm old, i wld rather die at hm than to go to the hospital. I'm really shocked how poor their management n services are. Needless to mention abt their efficiency. I knw mine wasnt emergency bt i dun think i deserve to wait for 5hrs n then here comes the nurse telling me they r closing come back next week for another appt. JUST LET ME DIE AT HM NEXT TIME. zzz
I want to meet a fairy god mother RIGHT NOW so i can ask her to cure my leg NOW. Its super annoying to hop on one leg. Tats how i'm gg to spend the rest of my hols which is nt worth it at all. Argh. Now i'm gg to miss lessons and TRNGS! Damn. And i cannt accompany noelle for breakfast, she is so upset! HAHA. I cant wait to walk... =(
Wat a great day for me to sprain my ankle. No wonder i feel the strong objection within myself whn i insisted to go for trng. Damn. I nv tot that spraining ankle will be so painful. Ms tan was nice enough to send me hm. Thn i realized quite a number of things abt her. LOL. I really dunno wat the hell was i thinking to make me eventually sprain my ankle?! Like i nv tot sprain ankle will happen on me? I always tot tat only clumsy pple will? Ahhhh...
(msg me and u'll see my ankle heal in no time)- somebody say its stupid bt i disagree. HAH
I think i'm still thinking of it bt at least i can control myself slightly better. I also dun like to put on an unhappy face bt cant help it right. I feel like doing nothing n forget abt it bt its nt my fault that it keeps coming back. Wherever the feeling is gg, i think nothing shld affect Alevel for nw. Sometimes pple just dun do what they said isnt it? hah. I really dunno where to go if i get D D D S for my A's.
I'm really nt in a right mood nw. I think my ego killed me. I;ve been thinking too much till i tot everything was real. That very moment i felt tat my heart sank to the bottom. The amt of disappointment. Watever i told myself before hand became useless, like i cant even control? I really regret gg for trng.
Sat wasnt a great day! Started raining like shit before i reached sch. Wet hair smelly shoes! NAPFA merely able to gt thru all. I think NAPFA is nt really on fitness bt also luck n skin thickness. As long as u get the right teacher n thick skinned enough to try agn n agn n agn n agn despite scoldings.
Din really enjoyed trng. I nv liked the idea of tis n that. k nvm.
Things (particularly feelings) can really become awful whn u r not precise. Or shld i say whn things r not precise pple's feelings become awful...