I'm REALLY HAPPY TODAY! Its not something great to anyone, but at least to me its something off my chest. I'll gain back my sleep i guess. Maybe different people hv different opinions, but to me it doesnt matter anymore coz i like whatever i hv now. Maybe i'm just not tt type of ass.
I realised i'm being so selfish but yet i dunno how to mend it back. I realised everything under my care has been screwed up by myself. I realised my fickling mind kills all my decisions badly. I realised my common sense doesnt exists anymore. I realised i've been slping abnormally from reaching home from sch to the next day almost every single day. i realised hurting pple unknowingly weaken my days like shit.
Theres somethings i wish i could understand too, I'm afraid i will nv be as happy as i was. It really makes a difference in sch for me. How important can u be?
Captain ball competition with wife, andria and grace, tgt with andrew's guys gt 2nd. Was so close to 1st though. 20-22. bt we played well seriously Met new pple and 2 earthquakes at swensens was a blessing tmr econs test, yet to study. i think i will just fail the test i just feel like slping AGAIN until fri move on! eve! Bye.
I'm really happy today becoz i managed to sort out whatever tts holding me back. I knw i've learnt my lesson well enough and i'm sure i dunwanna repeat the same mistake. Its nt something tt i want to be hurt twice. Somethings just nv gonna happen, nt worth thinking too much. I believe the theory tt it takes time to heal every wounds so i'm gonna heal mine starting from today with me, myself and i.
I can actually count on netball training to cheer me up at times. For so whatever reasons, i feel happier then. Maybe bcoz its less stressful esp after lousia is in army. But i really dun like to run! Haha. Emme hope u see this entry of mine!!! =D Sch was real bad today. Bt with friends of mine ard. things gt better ( FOR SURE!) lol. Come to think of it, long breaks in sch are blessings to pple with wonderful friends, however its nightmare for pple who doesnt hv. I'm fortunate coz i definitely hv more than one wonderful friend. =)
I have to complete econs, history, chinese and maths by today no matter how unwilling and unhappy i am. The course ytd really suck our money. 57bucks down the drain just like this. wtf. I need to find a new way to deal with unhappiness since slping is no longer that effective for me alrdy. I cant wait for next week to watch harry potter with breakfast's siblings and retards. Hopefully it wun turn out to be another disppointment agn. Seriously not in a gd mood this whole entire freaking week, i hope it will be a one starting from tmr. I shld start mentioning to myself that studies shld come 1st no matter what.
I'm at a happy yet confused state. Happy tt i got over my results and decided to stop thinking abt it, just try to work hard for promos. Confused tt i'm still being a lazy bum and i hv doubts in certain things. Anyways, training today wasnt tt bad. Though it took me so long to decide to go or not. Too bad Dear Emmeline's face just kept appearing in my mind whn i was deciding to tap my card and go home or not. HAHA SCARY! Lousia will be missed by us for sure, bt well, she will be back and visit us some day. =) The disppointing part was, only 10 pple turned up. =(
Finally weekends here! Anw i'm jealous, amelia and kris at least hv a sub pass for a h2 sub. =( sigh. What happened to econsssss!!! kept going to the pet shop nowadays with kris. The dogs are super cute. Charlene made me have a phobia lol. But she has proven my stand tt relationship DON'T last! HAH! Whatever. Hello kristin! i dun need a MAN or WOMAN rmb? hahahaha!!!!
I'm relieved, found a pair of listening ears. At least somebody understands. Thanks. I dunno how to buck up on my studies but i'm willing to try every means and ways to improve somehow.
30th june'07, last day of national stadium. =( Means no more passing by whn going netball center. =( When to watch the aus VS spore soccer match (though i spend most of my time queueing for ramly burger) argh. Anw 3-0 aus won. At least i didnt miss the two goals. After tt when clarke quay, FOR nothing! hahaha. Overall tiring bt fun, bcoz, got to take nat's secret pics, broke my reocrd for queueing ramly for an hr, go clarke quay in FBT shorts. wth. haha. AND most imptly, my tix was free, right zhi xin? hahahahaha!!
GOODBYE STADIUM!!! GOAL! GOAL! GOAL! forgt who was so unprofessional to take this photo (i think its nat) hahaha!