Now little lisa is only 9 years old Shes tryin to figure out why the world is so cold Why shes all all alone and they never met her family Mamas always gone and she never met her daddy Part of her is missin and nobody will listenin Mama is on drugs gettin high up in the kitchen Bringin home men at different hours of the night Startin with laughs--usually endin in a fight Sneak into her room while her mamas knocked out Tryin to have his way and little lisa says 'ouch' She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own Forced to think that hell is a place called home Nothin else to do but some get some clothes and pack She says shes bout to run away and never come back.
Runaway love
Little nicole is only 10 years old Shes steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold Why shes not pretty and nobody seems to like her Alcoholic step dad always wanna strike her Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises Teachers ask questions she makin up excuses Bleedin on the inside, cryin on the out Its only one girl really knows what she about Her name is lil stacy and they become friends Promise that they always be tight til the end Until one day lil stacy gets shot A drive by bullet went stray up on her block Now nicole stuck up in the world on her own Forced to think that hell is a place called home Nothin else to do but some get some clothes and pack She says shes bout to run away and never come back.
Runaway love
Little erica is eleven years old Shes steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold So she pops x to get rid of all the pain Cause shes havin sex with a boy whos sixteen Emotions run deep and she thinks shes in love So theres no protection hes usin no glove Never thinkin bout the consequences of her actions Livin for today and not tomorrows satisfaction The days go by and her belly gets big The father bails out he aint ready for a kid Knowin her mama will blow it all outta proportion Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion Erica is stuck up in the world on her own Forced to think that hell is a place called home Nothin else to do but get her clothes and pack She say shes about to run away and never come back.
-Gen emm dawn are the sweetest creatures on earth! Our gdbye waves... hehe
-Creepy hotel freaked retards on the 1st night
-China pple aren't friendly, excluding the tour guides etc..
-Tanned pple cant survive in China i swear, stares were more than anything else.. haha
-Extra room mates zhi xin and natasha =) (no more zhi xin's snores..sigh)
-Cheap cheap shopping with time limit, i regretted not buying MORE!
-My precious kiss to dear retard kristin and eh dylon! lol
-Trained 2.4km by running in the temple with breakfast.
-Yummy and yucky food that we love to taste and yuck.. =D
-My 1st attempt to great wall, ok i mean less than 1/10 of great wall hahahaha!
-Trishaw men are NOT simple (ask me if u wanna knw) -Seth (mr lim's son) loves to dig his nose, frm day 1 to 10.
-Toilets in China "rocks" (half door, doorless or share, your pick) haha
-I met lots of new friends =)
-Eye candy no more...haha
-Singing was a past-time in the coach (HEY HEY! YOU YOU! I DUN LIKE UR GIRLFRIEND!)
-My pen pal photo collections!!! (inner joke) I LOVE MY PEN PAL..
-I'm beginning to like Singapore, but yet i dun mind living in China if i'm fairer. haha
-Singapore students are so much more fortunate then China's.
-Village trip was more fun than expected, however the food there......
-Last bt not least, friendship was tested thru out the whole trip...
My apology for writing in point forms, i'm lazy and refused to be long-winded. The whole trip was more on bonding and interacting but nt forgetting our real motive of going to China. Had to write reflections evey night. At least i have a sort of clear pic of what China is really like. I'm confident to say that most of us enjoyed this trip. I gt to sort out some of my thoughts during the trip and really TRAININGS WILL REALLY BEGIN TMR! gd bye China gd bye mao zedong.
When i'm moody, this is what i need. HAHA (inner joke again)
I have so many things due on fri, omg. I'm going to complete at least my cse file, Chinese and part of my hist by tonight. Shall not mention anything on inter house anymore,dun feel like hearing. Thanks for helping me out jiahui! Now i'll just concentrate looking forward to china trip with the retards. Yeah...
I think i've cleared most of my doubts. Whatever motivations i needed earlier on is coming their way to me. Sometimes its just too silly of me, and i'm not going to be anymore i promise. So here i come china with my retards! More sicko trainings! Not too much tests to mug!! Oh and not forgetting emme the WIFE! Are u touched? lol.
Failed to skip netball again all because of emme my dear wife. However, i find today's training good coz it really train our speed and stamina. And i hate being in charge of netball fo pierce. Sigh. Its really discouraging when u try to arrange some time for training and briefing tmr and yet pple can say they cant turn up. So whats the point of putting down ur name on the board in the 1st place? And i have hist test on wed, not that i'm too free. I can't even find a ear stud stopper, call myself netballer....
Its better to like someone without wanting anything back. Somehow, its difficult. I'm just full of unclear thoughts. Looking forward to sat...
I shouldn't love you but I want to I just can't turn away I shouldn't see you but I can't move I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not 'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop
Just so you know This feeling's taking control of me And I can't help it I won't sit around, I can't let him win now Thought you should know I've tried my best to let go of you But I don't want to I just gotta say it all Before I go Just so you know
It's getting hard to be around you There's so much I can't say Do you want me to hide the feelings And look the other way
This emptiness is killing me And I'm wondering why I've waited so long Looking back I realize It was always there just never spoken I'm waiting here...been waiting here
From steamboat to kfc, how nice. But anw, we enjoyed the meal despite being serve by kfc staff who is even slower than emme! Haha. EVERYONE IS NOT SIMPLE HAHA! Met lynn after tt, cool... i was super late, in the end couldnt get tickets for spiderman in the evening. Bought tickets for 9pm =( There was UK funfair, the rides are so expensive but then, it will be good to have a few rides, afterall its once in awhile. I shall have it next week if going with the retards! I really hope i can go china =(
Ytd night i had dream, seems real but yet kind of unachievable. Now i pray dreams will eventually come true no matter how many horrify ones i'm gonna get after having this dream of mine coming true. Because, its all about u.
Days been good in school with great friends around =) Training starting on mon. Shall just look forward to it. Didnt feel good after gp today, i know why, but come to think of it, i still achieved something out of it. IJTP no cute girls! oops! Better dun let NOELLE see this.. lol. I dun get it why they have to pay for their year book..! Tmr long and tough day! Cant wait for sunday...
I didnt have much confidence when it comes to asking u the qns. But somehow, i feel tt it some sort of determined certain things. I'll just take it naturally. Monday.
This morning i was struggling to sch, gave up in the end. Mugged for hist and econs essay. At least i tried hard. Pizza hut with pig, emme, gen, nick, pris, so damn ex. My 1st and last time eating pizza hut with friends!
This world is unfair. Since long we talked, somehow i feel it affecting me bit by bit. How far will it go?
I'm kind of confused in what i want, especially when it comes to relationship. However, i'm pretty contented with what i have now. I love all my friends and even the stress that is on its way. Nahz i'll just heck whatever is confusing me. I feel that i'm much better than last year dealing with such problems.
Waited for NOELLE for her grp gpp, and then i realise amelia's grp is damn free tts y their grp member can come and kpo about other pple. Went mac with NOELLE, she waste food and then popular with NOELLE. Guess who we saw?! Miss amelia yeo!!!!! I was so shocked to see her there =) Please stop me from stayingback in sch tmr, i'll rush home to revise maths n hist! Pray hard for my grp gpp as well! goodbye, i'm going to talk to NOELLE now! Cant wait for weekend, right NOELLE??? I MENTIONED SO MUCH ABOUT U PIG! -)
Its really high time for me to move on. Why am i still being disturbed by such things? Tell myself, i deserve what i have now, i dun need ANYONE to destroy them.
Know what? I have deleted all the conversations we had. I read it for the last time and i realise how painful it was to hang on. Its giving me a phobia. Recently i'm fear of death bcoz i cant imagine myself dying n lost connections with everyone i love forever, my family, my friends n everyone else. I think tts what i'm most afraid of. One more thing, i found myself lots of reasons why i cant afford to retain next yr. I'll take it as a gd thing. Thanks Emm the WIFE! (= Come to think of it, i'm seriously happy thru out this few mths in yj, i guess the main reason is i'm not hving anyone in mind and i'm really satisfy hving a gd bunch of friends n studies to worry abt. I need lots of motivation urgently to carry on with sports, i'm very demoralised, very i mean. =(
Was late for sch today,i managed to escape ytd but not today. Cse debate was a mess,nvm,will do better the next time =) i'm beginning to like thursday =) =) =) During PW decision i really feel like slping,miss karmen kept looking at me,so i had to force myself to stay. Anw,i dun see he thinks that going to his friend's hse is more impt than PW. All bcoz of him,sat meet at 8?! Kristin and i RAN,i mean RANNNN to northpoint right after PW. Caught spiderman! Kristen Dunst is still as HOT as usual! =) The ending just kinda expected instead of unexpected,not surprising. Oh well its a good show!!!! i'm going to watch that with grace! I'm happy today for whatever things i've tried doing!
Trip to amelia's hse was fun fun fun! Haha. Though we didnt buy bag. We enjoyed ourselves like mad,sky and penny are sooo cute! Oh btw,they are dogs. Lol. Her parents are so sweet,ordered pizza for us! Stupid noelle didnt swim with us! Anw,we failed to do any cse discussion at her hse nor any homework. I think we spend the time there playing with her dogs and slacking around. I'm left with so much homework,dun think i can sleep tonight! Amelia's brother is so cute la! Really damn cute! hahahaa....! Nvm,we shall go to her more often! yay!!! Tmr cjc match.