Yeah happy 19th bday to myself. The surprise celebration by my cunning clique and sis really made my day. Who say whn u r feeling the worse theres no way to make it better? Though my appreciation doesnt show much bt i want thm to knw i really hope our friendship will always be there. Speaking of which, unexpected surprise comes with utter disappointment too. Whn i tot wat i wld like to hear will be there, it didnt and nt even close to it. Maybe i'm an extremely hopeful person and i hallucinate. Perhaps while caring abt wat i want, i shld consider that she might nt want it too.
(Thank u amelia, thank you dawn, thank you kristin, thank you priscilla, thank you noelle, and thank you sis ( and andrea?)!)
seems like i still hv no idea wats the best way to comfort myself bt i want to convince myself as long as her another half can give her the best out of everything, i will be more than happy.
Prolly said to b a difficult week i've went thru. Pple always like to hear the truth, i think i'm an exception. Esp truth tat tears u apart mentally. Esp truth tat comes frm friend who knws u will b affected bt yet telling u abt it without caring abt ur feelings. I believe nthing will b able to compensate wat i'm feeling nw, at least nt for the time being.
I hate IS! Esp whn theres tons of things to rephrase n add-on. However it must really be done soon. Sch left with two wks makes me sad, how i wish its another two yrs for the 1st time. I dun see any motivation to start studying, maybe my real intention is to retain for non-academic agenda. Econs hist maths mock paper oh great! I'm ready! not.